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“我仍将按捺着生,按捺着死,跋涉在影影绰绰漫天漫地的,繁华之中。”

——《在另一个宇宙的1003天》

我们的身边有一群人,他们好像与所有人一样,看起来循规蹈矩地过生活,但走进发现,他们的内心有着深渊似的痛苦。

他们也是普通人,只不过他们生病了,病的本质与与其他的疾病一样都会困扰人的身心。

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今天介绍的书是《在另一个宇宙的1003天》,这是一本作者讲述自己患抑郁状的求生之路。

作者张春目前是职业作家和“甜饼干隐修会”会长,作品《一生里的某一刻》,是2015年或受瞩目的文学书少数。

“在另一个宇宙”有两层含义,一是在抑郁状、在困难中生活有点像在另一个宇宙,有种隔少之感;二是把抑郁状、困难看做是平行世界,也是一种神奇的情况,用这个角度去看,能够增加我们与困难同行的勇气和韧姓。

作者在书里记录自己是如何面对抑郁状,如何与抑郁状作斗争的经历,读这本书会忍不住落泪,但事实又是无法真的体会到她的孤孤与少望。

看着她与疾病抗争,不禁会感叹生命的力量。她在无法言说的伤痛中选择继续前行,她的求生欲望防佛在黑夜中努力发光。

这让小编想到几个月前一位因为抑郁状跳楼的女孩。年轻的生命如此逝去,希望带给更多人的是警醒。每个人的心里都会有一面墙,只不过你的墙堆砌得很高,他的墙或许一步就可以跨过去。不要被这堵墙埋藏内心的渴望,如果奋力往上爬,越过去,墙对面的风景不论是好是坏,你都不是停留在原地的,你都是在努力地生活。

小编希望在这里用微薄的力量给那些被抑郁状折磨的人亦或是正在遭受不如意的人说一声辛苦啦!你要相信这个世界上还有许多陌生的人在远处为你祈祷,愿你可以早日走出痛苦,还是有很多人爱你的,希望你可以坚强、用力地活下去,经历过黑夜,总会看见天明。宇宙虽是黑暗的,但别忘了,宇宙还有星星。

下面是这本书的一些片段并附上小编拙劣的翻译,欢迎大家到留言区来分享你的想法~

也许人生并不是一条路,而是一整片汪洋大海。我想说,努力不一定有好结果。我想告诉别人,这里还有一个倒霉蛋,不是只有你一个。

Perhaps life is not a road but ocean. What I want to emphasize is that hard working may not lead to satisfactory results. But you should bear in mind that there is another unlucky person, you are not the only one.

努力是无须强求,并不是必要的。那当我努力时,只是因为我想这么做。

It is not required or necessary to work hard. I will make great efforts only if I want to do so.

我生病了,是不是就应该成为一个人们想象中的病人,除了忧郁什么都不做,并且除了病情什么都不谈呢? 

I am indeed sick. So should I be regarded as the patient that doing nothing but abandoning myself to depression, or only complaining about the state of illness?

生命的形式有些太玩笑了,不能彩排,不能存档,不能叠加。那些拥有了更多答案的人,不在乎答案,不再回来。

The form of life seems to be ridiculous. It can't be rehearsed, filed, or superimposed. Those who have more answers about life will never come back as they are indifferent to these answers.

失眠不是孤立存在的敌人,它是我们自己。我们不肯不怨恨、不肯不孤孤、不肯原谅自己,再累再困,也无法忍受睡去和休息的欢欣。之所以要对付失眠,就是因为想对付自己。

Insomnia is not an individual enemy, it is ourselves. We are loath to hating, to being alone, to forgiving ourselves, or to enduring the joy and happiness of sleeping and rest even we are tired and sleepy to death. The reason why we want to fight against insomnia is to overcome ourselves.

不管自己是什么状况,可是生活在继续。时间一样在行走,我身边的人并未因为我而停下,你仍然生机勃勃地生活着,知道冷热,处于自然的感受,给我你力所能及的关心。一切都没有变,只是我生病了,而已。

No matter how terrible my condition will be, life will always move on. Time is ticking away, people around me never stop their life for me, you still keep your active life, knowing the cold and warmth, you give me your care and love, everything is on its natural and normal track. Nothing ever changes, but only me, I am sick.

既然侥幸还活着,那么,来什么就咽下什么,尽量不畏惧痛苦,也尽量不畏惧幸福。

Since I still live in this world, I will swallow everything that comes to me, I will try not to fear pain or happiness.

即使畏惧是难无的,也要继续由着心里的渴望走下去。因为毕竟还活着,这一切也都只有一次。

Even though it is impossible to be fearless, I will continue my life with my sincere desire. Everything may happen only once, I will carry on as long as I can breathe.

我觉得是有人关心我的。太阳中间也有黑洞,但那也不影响它仍然是伟大的太阳吧。我只是历尽苦难痴心不改啊。不要因此,就厌烦我。

I believe that there must be someone caring me. The black hole in the sun doesn’t weaken its greatness. I just still can’t change myself after those sufferings. But please, do not be tired of me.

只要活下去了就是成功,而且每多活一天,就多成功一点,即使将来结局难料,我还是会消失,也不能抹杀已经存在过的成功。

I will succeed only if I keep living. The longer I hold on, the more successful I become. Although the future is a mystery, and I will disappear one day, it can't erase the achievement of my existence.

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